Mastermind

June 3, 2007

Just back from church. Today’s topic was really amazing.
It’s actually about the lost son. I’ve already heard this story many times
since I was a Sunday school kid, but this time I came to a new way of
understanding the story. I’ve highlighted some points of today’s preaching.

1. God gives each of us a free will.

 He wants us to decide by ourselves.

2. Ever since the child went away, the father kept
on praying each and every day believing that one day the son will come  home.

 Even though our Lord has given us the right to choose and
decide, when we got into the wrong decision, He actually keeps on waiting for us to come back. Never
in a moment has He given up on us.

3. He’ll always forgive us like He always did
before.

 All we need to do is come to His present, confessing our sin
and ask for forgiveness with humble. The lost son even aske for his father to accept him as his
paid servant, ‘cos he thought he was no longer worthy to be called his father’s
son. Once we ask for forgiveness,
He’ll cleanse our sins and never remember it anymore. No matter how many times
we have walked away from Him, He will
always wait on us faithfully.

4. Luke 15:22 “…. Bring the best robe and put it on
him…”

 The robe means an immediate honor. It means the father honored
his son. Our Father is honoring us too…. As we walk  back to His domain, He will accept us as His beloved sons/daughters.

5. Luke 15:22 “…. Put a ring on his finger….”

 A ring on finger means authority. It means all we have now
belong to him and we as His sons/ daughters have His authority. Authority for what? Authority for keeping us on
His way and walk with him in righteousness. We have Father’s authority to defeat any devils.
Devils cause sickness, poorness, etc. However, to be able to use this power, we
need to become His child. Not every
Christian is His child. Don’t let devils keep on stealing from us! Take a stand
now and use our authority!!! (in
today’s service, the pastor gave us an example about one silly leader that was
slapped by a satan worshipper  at
least dozen of times, in fact he was
willingly giving his cheek to be slapped because he took GOD’s words in bible literally. Remember about if we were hit
by someone once on our right cheek, then the bible told us to give our left
cheek also…? Haha…. really funny.
(but seems like I’m also doing the same as this leader did right now on
slightly different case).   Ps
Sandra reminded us that we have our authority, don’t let the devil step on us!
)

6. Luke 15:22 “…. and sandals on his feet….”

 Sandals means new way, new path. God will provide us a new
path of our life when we decide to come back to Him.  Our life will never be the same again as we receiving Him as our
Lord, and our savior.

7. Luke 15:23 “Bring the fattened calf and kill
it…..”

This verse means celebration. It’s said
that when one sinner confess and repents from his sin, all of heaven is
rejoicing.

I feel really blessed by Ps Sandra’s
preaching. Countless time I’ve walked away from him, countless time I’ve
confessed and promised to never do it anymore, I just really hope that now is
for real. Perhaps I’ve never used His authority before, or maybe I just didn’t
know how to use it. But now, I hope everything will not be the same anymore…..

-Lia Andriyani

A bird needs more than wings to fly

So it won’t fall when reach the top

A man needs more than talents to
survive

So he won’t fall when reach the top

Human ask for greater mind

But that doesn’t keep him from
being blind

Human ask for gentle heart

But that doesn’t keep him from
being hurt

Something can’t be perfect

As words can’t stand without an act

No matter how hard you try

You’ll never be able to fly

I saw a lot

I read a lot

I heard a lot

But those were not enough

Sometimes I cried

Felt that nothing I did was right

But then I cheered up again

Coz someone took away my pain

Ups and downs

Being jerk and being clown

It doesn’t change a thing

I’m still me

This is myself you’ve known for
years

Together with all my strengths and
fears

Though I’m far away from being
perfect

I’m always giving my best, to
become as what you expect

I wish I could be someone for
everyone

But He decided it’s enough for me to always be there for someone…

So I pull myself together

And say I’ll be your angel for years
of my life

Lia Andriyani

June 2, 2007

I trusted you

Given away my pride

For me to be able to say those
words

I believed you

Given up my common sense

For me to be able to feel that way

I guess I was so foolish

I should have not put any hope in
you

Knowing myself is weak

I should have never started
anything

What would I expect

What would I dream

If there left nothing in my hand to
hold

If there left nothing in my brain
to think

I lost

Very poorly ‘til the end

I don’t want to feel the pain
anymore

But I guess the pain is far better
than the reality

I seek for anger

It was there but it isn’t

I seek for another hope

It was there but no longer exists

I found one instead

Bigger than anything

A disappointment

It kills me each and every second

I couldn’t measure it

The effort I have put

The time I have spent

The laughter on top of my sadness

All just to see you smile

And all are wasted away

How many times I should forgive,
Father?

Up to seven times?

“I tell you, not seven times, but
seventy-seven times.”

So, I take my stand

with broken heart and the rest of
my strength

putting away my dignity

to say, “you are forgiven, now and
forever…”

May 12, 2007

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Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I
forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?” Jesus answered,
“I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.”

- Matthew 18: 21-22 (NIV)

There was a time

when there is no mountain high
enough to climb

there was a time

when there is no doubt in mind

I fight a lot

‘til my heart is wounded

I cry a lot

‘til my eyes are swollen

When no one cares

When no one’s there

All my life was just about me

Coz no one realized I’ve ever been
here

There was a time

When I was giving up all I’ve ever
had

There was a time

When I was poorer than everybody
else

I pity myself a lot

‘til my heart lost its taste

I was begging for help

‘til myself lost its dignity

When no one cares

When no one’s there

I found my true friend

Brighter than any star I’ve ever
seen

Matter of time

Matter of moment

Knowing where I could find one

Knowing when I could lose one

Regret of loss

Grateful of finding

A life which won’t end

Come and goes like it never happens

You, the chosen one

No longer my priority

You, the special one

No longer left behind

April 18, 2007

Proverbs 30:24-28 (New International Version)

24 "Four things on earth are small,
       yet they are extremely wise:

25 Ants are creatures of little strength,
       yet they store up their food in the summer;

26 coneys ^[a] are creatures of little power,
       yet they make their home in the crags;

27 locusts have no king,
       yet they advance together in ranks;

28 a lizard can be caught with the hand,
       yet it is found in kings’ palaces.

i stood up in silence

with eyes closed and empty mind

i heard no sound but mine

screaming loudly across the air

it was an ordinary day

yet until it rained

it was indeed a perfect day

but not worth a smile at the end

i saw it was ticking

steady and strong

telling me i was beaten

even before the real war begins

i walked into the room

found it was empty

walked into another room

saw nothing but darkness

as the room in mind

and space in heart

have nothing to say

have no line to other way

when the body lost its soul

and no song to be sung

when the mind lost its brain

and no rhythm in beats

empty….

it was just an empty world

no taste, feeling, sound, nor sense

as long as its still moving

nothing left but an emptiness

hiding inside the chamber

resting for another moment

as for me

I’d lost all in a sudden

too fast to ever realized

yet the real me still left inside

i’ve taken my rest

leads me to another start

i stood up in silence

with eyes closed and a bright of mind

i heard all voices around me

whispering softly closed to my heart

saying it’s another chance in time

for me to have a special day

right before the real war ends….

I’d like to say forever
for things I see as never
though it seems uncertain
it goes higher than a mountain

I’d like to think as a winner
for things I face as a sinner
though the result is unsure
I put myself as a measure

I’d like to act like a magician
when it comes to ambition
people think I’m to much
but it remains untouched

I’d like to dream for today
skipping the morning and face the day
I know it seems too hard
so lets find a new guard

talking is not a new job
but don’t put it on your top
people will see your mouth
till days old you left no tooth

I choose my every word
even in time I was hurt
‘cos someone may see I’m crying
when the other one thought I’m smiling

I’d like to think anything
if it worth something
though it seems confusing
I choose myself to keep on fighting

coz I know world is cruel
I have to set my own rule
some may say its silly
but they’re just too early

I have a right to choose
also a chance to lose
step forward or stay
I still have to pay
so think like no one ever do
that’s what I’m trying to do