Mastermind

You could’ve broken many hearts
And I know you always said it had never been easy
Try to be my heart and you’ll know
It was the hardest time for me

I could’ve made a billion mistakes
But when it came to u
I always made every moment as perfect as in my dreams

I could’ve cried a thousand tears
But it wouldn’t be the same as a single tear shed that day

Coz I….
I dreamed and wished every second
Coz I…
I prayed and wondered every day
How are you and how you’ve been
Where are you and where you’ll be

It took a step and everything’s gone
Years I built my dreams
To hold and touch in my mind
A second it blown away
Tore every breath that I hold

It had never been a second chance
You didn’t even give a first…
For everything I kept in mind
And dealt with it every single time

I could’ve hurt so many people
And cried each day for doing so
Try to be me and you’ll see
Would rather hurt a nation
Just to make you smile

Time is running
Yet the pain remains
For every heart wouldn’t be the same
When it happens once in life
It broke and never healed
When you said it wasn’t easy on you….

Lia Andriyani
March 18, 2008

Whats there with numbers
Something the words cant say out loud
Whats there with symbols
Something the tongue cant say without a doubt

It was there right on my lips
Wonder why it didn’t come out in time
It was there right on my hips
I put my weight not to let me fall

I ask GOD why I have mouth
When I never speak out the words in mind
I ask LORD why I have hands
When I cant hold someone I care bout tightly

It was written on my life
I was who I am right now
A thinker not an actor
Not even dare to take a step forward

Not a perfect one
No doubt bout who I am
A different person will be
When the tickling feeling burst my heart
When I love….
I do it perfectly

Would you let me be myself
Coz its just the way that fits me perfectly
Would you let me be in silence
Even tho u know words everywhere lying on my brain

Would you let me be myself
Knowing that u may know me better
But keep the feeling inside
Coz it’s the way I like myself to be

Please let me be myself
Reaching everything in my dreams quietly
Like numbers playing with words
Symbols dancing between languages
Its who I am entirely

Lia Andriyani
January 19, 2008