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I trusted you

Given away my pride

For me to be able to say those
words

 

I believed you

Given up my common sense

For me to be able to feel that way

 

I guess I was so foolish

I should have not put any hope in
you

Knowing myself is weak

I should have never started
anything

 

What would I expect

What would I dream

If there left nothing in my hand to
hold

If there left nothing in my brain
to think

 

I lost

Very poorly ‘til the end

I don’t want to feel the pain
anymore

But I guess the pain is far better
than the reality

 

I seek for anger

It was there but it isn’t

I seek for another hope

It was there but no longer exists

 

I found one instead

Bigger than anything

A disappointment

It kills me each and every second

 

I couldn’t measure it

The effort I have put

The time I have spent

The laughter on top of my sadness

All just to see you smile

And all are wasted away

 

How many times I should forgive,
Father?

Up to seven times?

“I tell you, not seven times, but
seventy-seven times.”

 

So, I take my stand

with broken heart and the rest of
my strength

putting away my dignity

to say, “you are forgiven, now and
forever…”

 

May 12, 2007

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Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I
forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?” Jesus answered,
“I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.”

- Matthew 18: 21-22 (NIV)

 

There was a time

when there is no mountain high
enough to climb

there was a time

when there is no doubt in mind

 

I fight a lot

‘til my heart is wounded

I cry a lot

‘til my eyes are swollen

 

When no one cares

When no one’s there

All my life was just about me

Coz no one realized I’ve ever been
here

 

There was a time

When I was giving up all I’ve ever
had

There was a time

When I was poorer than everybody
else

 

I pity myself a lot

‘til my heart lost its taste

I was begging for help

‘til myself lost its dignity

 

When no one cares

When no one’s there

I found my true friend

Brighter than any star I’ve ever
seen

 

Matter of time

Matter of moment

Knowing where I could find one

Knowing when I could lose one

 

Regret of loss

Grateful of finding

A life which won’t end

Come and goes like it never happens

 

You, the chosen one

No longer my priority

You, the special one

No longer left behind

 

April 18, 2007

Proverbs 30:24-28 (New International Version)

 

24 "Four things on earth are small,
       yet they are extremely wise:

25 Ants are creatures of little strength,
       yet they store up their food in the summer;

26 coneys ^[a] are creatures of little power,
       yet they make their home in the crags;

27 locusts have no king,
       yet they advance together in ranks;

28 a lizard can be caught with the hand,
       yet it is found in kings’ palaces.