Mastermind

i stood up in silence

with eyes closed and empty mind

i heard no sound but mine

screaming loudly across the air

it was an ordinary day

yet until it rained

it was indeed a perfect day

but not worth a smile at the end

i saw it was ticking

steady and strong

telling me i was beaten

even before the real war begins

i walked into the room

found it was empty

walked into another room

saw nothing but darkness

as the room in mind

and space in heart

have nothing to say

have no line to other way

when the body lost its soul

and no song to be sung

when the mind lost its brain

and no rhythm in beats

empty….

it was just an empty world

no taste, feeling, sound, nor sense

as long as its still moving

nothing left but an emptiness

hiding inside the chamber

resting for another moment

as for me

I’d lost all in a sudden

too fast to ever realized

yet the real me still left inside

i’ve taken my rest

leads me to another start

i stood up in silence

with eyes closed and a bright of mind

i heard all voices around me

whispering softly closed to my heart

saying it’s another chance in time

for me to have a special day

right before the real war ends….

I’d like to say forever
for things I see as never
though it seems uncertain
it goes higher than a mountain

I’d like to think as a winner
for things I face as a sinner
though the result is unsure
I put myself as a measure

I’d like to act like a magician
when it comes to ambition
people think I’m to much
but it remains untouched

I’d like to dream for today
skipping the morning and face the day
I know it seems too hard
so lets find a new guard

talking is not a new job
but don’t put it on your top
people will see your mouth
till days old you left no tooth

I choose my every word
even in time I was hurt
‘cos someone may see I’m crying
when the other one thought I’m smiling

I’d like to think anything
if it worth something
though it seems confusing
I choose myself to keep on fighting

coz I know world is cruel
I have to set my own rule
some may say its silly
but they’re just too early

I have a right to choose
also a chance to lose
step forward or stay
I still have to pay
so think like no one ever do
that’s what I’m trying to do